Today's been a really bad day for me.

it was fine until lunchtime.

two guys who are really annoying....one has annoyed me sicne elementary school and keeps bothering me, the other is in my math tutoring class and is :icondalizzlybear: 's boyfriend.

well, those two annoying guys saw me and my boyfriend sitting together hanging with my friends and they started laughing and talking shit about me, and even went so far as to go tell the "popular crowd."

i didn't have many friends in the popular crowd, but it still hurt and embarrassed me. what's worse, i got annoyed, very annyoed, and got up and tried to beat them up.

but :icondalizzlybear: tried to stop me, and i must admit she succeeded, because i can't hit her. she was holding me back and wouldn't let go until i promised not to do anything.

well, this happened once or twice and i returned back to sitting with Darien defeated but still my temper was flaming.

and i wouldn't have become so sad until he laughed that annoying little laugh of his and smirked and said "dude baby you need to chill, what did they do?"

and i was already pretty pissed at those guys. one more thing, Darien's been telling me every day that his BFF Akshay kept publicly saying "Your girlfriend dresses like a slut." and i was a bit sad already that Darien suddenly told me yesterday that I was his THIRD girlfriend when he said it was his first relationship.

now, i must say, sluts go around showing off their big chests. and since i barely HAVE a chest, i'm not a slut! and my mom won't let me get out of the house if my shorts or skirts are too short or if my shirt is too low. so i'm not a slut!

so i guess my temper just exploded and when my temper gets the better of me, i do someting subconsciously and i regret it.

i said, "your common sense is no better than those two bastards! is this how you do, laugh at me behind my back with your friends, then calling me your girlfriend?"

and you know what i did?

i slapped him. really hard on the cheek. and he just stood there with a smile on his face.

i swear, i ran away and the bell very conveniently rang...

i feel like crying.

if you're reading this, you know i love you and i regret what i did. i won't blame you if you want to dump me, i'm a horrible girlfriend. but i'd do anything for you, i'd even jump off a cliff for you.